forgive me

for making the blog private but i had no choice. ive decided to reopen it. but it is with heavy heart.

elji loved me like no other..he still does.

i love him.

but ive lost him to his family. they took him from me.

i doubt ill ever hear from him again.

i have to accept that.

but my burden is so heavy.

i try to give it to Allah

but...i woke up this morning forgetting that he is out of my life. i picked up my cell phone (habit) to see if there were any messages.

then i remembered.

l feel like something is crawling over my skin.

i dont know which way to turn.