nothing like a saturday morning!

it is the best feeling to wake up without an alarm clock and not have to go anywhere at all!!  the first thing i do is let the dogs out for their bathroom break then head to the coffee pot!

i come to my computer and play a couple of games on FB, read the news, look at the squirrels and birds outside, play with the dogs, listen to music......and pray that no one wakes up until at least noon!

silence is lovely on a saturday morning!

ive been thinking of returning to egypt, taking the youngest with me of course to visit with family there. it would be the first time  going there without my husband being with us. i think thats why ive postponed it for so long.

why wont he be going? because he is still here in the usa living on his own in seattle.  dont ask. i asked a million times and never received a valid answer. so i formed my own answers and went on about life.

we are still legally married, in case youre wondering.  i often wonder if we will ever end this union or if i will leave this earth still hooked to him.

God only knows.

so...im back to immature viewpoints and wondering about life.

amazing how some people are so settled yet people like me are forever wondering about life.

one can only wonder

i often wonder if i ever cross your mind as you do mine. life jogs it doesnt stroll or walk. it jogs, it sprints, it runs. and sometimes you cant catch it, can you? so many things make me think of you or make me remember. i try not to remember but the mind has its own agenda. all of trials were for naught. you have to ask why we go through trials when there is no real outcome.

my daughter is having a baby

my oldest daughter is having a baby this month. its her first and she is so up and down. the least little pain drives her into a tizzy which drives me into a tizzy because i want her to calm down and understand how things work...in other words im impatient with her. i keep tellilng her ive been through this 5 times plus im a nurse so PLEASE calm down. her friends tell her to run to the emergency room for the least little thing and im always sighing.

i dont get excited about medical things i guess, yep, even pregnancy. i think being a nurse for 25 years kind of makes you a little too calm with things!!

its not that i dont care. of course i do, but dear God, how is she ever going to handle the real thing when labor really starts? ill need to wear a swimming cap so that neither she nor i can pull out my hair! anyway, her little girl is due on march 26th, a day before my birthday!! her name is going to be Winter and her middle name is something like this....kiaria..i have no clue how to spell it but i do know how to say it.... it would be pronounced like this KEE AIR EE AY. so there!! wish us luck for the remainder of the pregnancy. im taking the two girls (my daughters) to atlanta for the weekend to give the pregnant daughter her last outing before having to tote a baby along.