Saturday, May 31, 2008


i am.

i have fought hard for everything i have. no i dont mean material things. that is just something i dont care much about.

i mean religion, necessities, family, finances, understand right?

but now im tired. the fight is fighting back against me.

and im tired.

and i have given up.

at this point, im living in a vacuum. there are ppl and things swirling all around me at a rapid rate. but im in the center and not moving.

i used to grab hold of those things swirling around me and try to keep things in check. i held on for a long time but im tired and i let go.

i just let go.

and i cant grab anything else.


  1. This sounds like burn out to me.. part physical and part emotional. Time to slow down and re-evaluate. Go talk to your doctor now before it gets worse. You need to take care of yourself.

    Don't step entirely off the bus like I did Janabean. Don't allow yourself to spiral downhill until you reach rock bottom before you reach out for help. Please believe there is light at the end of the tunnel.. someone has turned the dimmer switch to low so it's hard to see.. but you can find that switch and turn it on again.. you really can.

    Love you.

  2. Yes on the burnout......

    I wish I could send you a bottle of instantly ME......a product that gives you fight and a second wind.

    Oh, if we could only bottle it....

  3. well safa if you can ever find a bottle of it let me know. i could definately use it.