Tuesday, July 7, 2009

i wanna go home.

i want to go home but the problem is i dont know where home is anymore. home is where the heart is? where is my heart? if i can find that, i think i can find home. i wish i could go to my mom's house, but there is no more mom's house. moms's house is the nursing home.

my children are moving away...kylee is where my heart is at the moment.....and part of it is with elji.

the problem is, i just cant find any familiarity anywhere. perhaps you may think im a needy person, and perhaps i AM a needy person but you know, thats really ok. takes all kinds to make the world go round, yeah?

maybe ill never find home here on earth...inshallah jannah can be my home one day.


  1. sweetie you have to move on, no longer are we kids we are grown up and yes i have cried for my mother, many a time and oft. But this is the real world kid, my mum is dead and even if she was alive she cant make it it better. girl you have to move on

    not try to be cruel but this is the life

  2. move on to...???? there is nothing to move on to at this point..at least you have your husband. i have no where to turn anymore.

  3. move on to the next stage in your life what ever that might be, the road is full of bends we never know what is going to be round them

  4. I didn't know she was in a nursing home. Awe...Jana, I'm so sorry.

    I know you must feel like a stranger in a stranger land, but I think as your babies grow and move out, their homes will also become your home.

    I don't see you as needy. You have been handling things remarkably, I rarely ever hear you speak of the last few months and that is amazing!

    There will be a new home for you inshallah. And inshallah it will come before Jannah. Love you so much!

  5. I just awarded you at my public blog! Love you lots!