so here i am. ive started a new diet. when i really put my mind to it i can lose weight. its not my favorite thing to do by any means because food is like an old friend to me. it doesnt kick you in the teeth when youre down. if youre lonely, its there for you. if youre sad, mad, happy, stupid. no matter what the emotion, its there to hold your hand!!!
think thats weird? maybe but thats how food is to a lifelong fatty!! yep thats me LLF. well the dealio is..ive gained 40 pounds in 2 years. the food at work (the hospital) is super fattening. they serve fried anything with loads of gravy. everything thats doesnt have gravy has cheese. then they add desert at the end. bread. sweet tea. thick fattening soups. nothing healthy at all.
then to make matters worse, i travel an hour each way so many times i whip through a drive through to grab either breakfast, supper or both!!
dear God. what a pig!!
anywho, i realized that all of my clothes were tight. fat roll hanging over the top of jeans. i cant stand it.
so i decided that i would really make a new years resolution and lose weight. i dont usually bother with resolutions cause they arent usually kept anyway. but its now or never. im getting older and dont want to be an old fat woman.
oh ill never be skinny. but i dont want rolls hanging over my waistbands. i dont want to round a corner and ppl see my stomach before they see my face!!
so ive been dieting. i eat healthy. snacking is my downfall so i have low fat, low sugar, low carb snacks.
so what is it about dieting that makes you want to eat everything you see and more? psychological i know! im trying to ignore that little voice in my head saying go ahead. get that burger.
gotta get rid of the fat roll. thats my new motto!! gonna get a bumpersticker with that on it!!!