Monday, October 27, 2008

dammit i am determined!!!!

where is my happiness? my joy? my cheerfulness? where is my cutting humor? my cynacism?


where did it go?



where is jana?


where is jana?


here i am!


here i am!


how are you today maam?


very well thank you?


run and play.


run and play.





whateva.



ok so im determined. to do what? i FEEL you. i know youre sitting at your desk scratching your head in perplexity. youre asking yourself, "what can jana be talking about?"



i know...i feel ya. i scratch my own head all the time in perplexity (good word, right?)



i am determined to be........HAPPY.





i am just SICK...no im just SICK ....of being down and out and fighting with myself. sick of struggling with life.



so.



determination.



and im not only determined, im determined to succeed.



if you see me with my big cow face droooping? please feel free to kick my arse here. i dont mind. remind me that I AM DETERMINED.



and now im liberated.

7 comments:

  1. sorrow is a natural condition of the universe. so what are you liberated from?

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  2. just that!! sorrow and depression and feeling like general shyte!!! it may be a natural condition but i dont want it to be my constant companion!!!

    i want to be free.

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  3. My own experiences have served to convince me that life should be purely experiential. There really is no sorrow, only an organic totality. History and human experience can only be viewed as the sum of all parts. Absolute historicism: all thought is one.

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  4. btw I've never heard the words to that song, but I know the cadence. I bet the tune is the same one my mom used to sing to me as a baby. The words I know are french. Brother Jack are you still asleep? lol

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  5. I think you just gotta shake it off.

    :)

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  6. i am shaking it off thanks AIO.

    greg yes its that little ditty!!

    but i dont want to stay down greg you have to know that. you know what ive been through in just these last 3 weeks alone!! you more than anyone....plz be a bit happy for me.

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  7. course i'm happy for ya home girl.

    :)

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