amazingly enough i am reopening this blog!!! its been closed for nearly 3 years! i nearly deleted it so many times and for a while i couldnt even visit this blog without feeling all sorts of ooky feelings i started a new blog on tumblr last night, but something nudged me in this direction today and im really happy that i did. there is a lot of history in these pages. yes its hard to read some of it, but i chalk it all up to life's lessons. and have learned any lessons. oh yes yes yes. i am no longer the person i was these past few years and i thank God that i have grown in so many ways. now....lets get on with it. lets live. lets move and shake. i want to live before i die. before its too late.